We live in a really difficult period in human history and it
is more the merely easy to get into a “bunker mentality” about what it means to
be a follower of Jesus. Paraphrasing that comment Paul makes, “the devils is
throwing darts our way.” (Eph. 6:16) as he walks around “as a roaring lion
seeking to devour us” as Peter notes. (1 Peter 5:8)
I’m good with all of that and have no struggle when it comes
to admitting that there are evil forces at work in the world. My guess is that
we probably overdo the “spiritual warfare” language in some contexts, but to
pretend that our battle isn’t a spiritual one is to ignore the obvious and to contradict
Scripture.
On Wednesday of this week, the Point community had an outdoor,
self-directed observance of Ash Wednesday. It was held in the courtyard of the
Lanier Academic Center. The courtyard is in the center of this massive
building, surrounded on all four sides by brick walls and windows. It is landscaped beautifully and the weather
was perfect. Among other things, my conviction that “outside” is a great place
to get serious with God was confirmed.
I stayed the entire hour the service was available because
students working with me were responsible for the service and I wanted to honor
their good work. While in the courtyard, I kept thinking about the importance
of “inward thinking.” That courtyard is “inside the place” where so much that
happens at Point happens.
Maybe it was the focus of Ash Wednesday, but I kept thinking
“if we don’t get the insides right, we can never get the outside right.” And
that brings me back to the issue of “spiritual warfare.” So often when I hear
that term, people are talking about forces on the outside that are opposed to
the people of God. I don’t doubt that there are such forces nor do I doubt that
they seem pretty powerful these days.
But it is hard to have taught Bible and theology for
forty-two years at Point and not let what you have learned sneak into to your deepest
places of thinking.
If you read the story of what I call “the earliest, early
Christians” in the first scene of Luke’s Acts
of the Apostles, (1:1-6:7) you will read a story of stunning advances made
by a group that began with twelve guys hiding in a room in Jerusalem, seemingly
afraid that what happed to Jesus could also happen to them. Outside forces have
them hiding. But the Holy Spirit came,
and next thing you know Luke is using numbers like 2000 in one place and 3000
more in another (mostly likely counting only men) to describe the growth of the
church.
It is a story of God’s intended purposes for His creation on
the way to restoration and renewal. They are selling property and giving it to
the apostles. Luke even notes a couple of times that there were no needy people
among them!
And . . . there were some “fire-like darts” from the outside
being thrown their way. There are stories of Jewish opposition that least to
the arrest of Peter and John. Talk of the resurrection of Jesus is considered
heresy and must be stopped, and just a general sense of “our culture doesn’t
want us here.” But the church keeps growing!
Finally – in Acts 5, we read the first story of internal problems. A couple named
Ananias and Sapphira, believers, scheme to get the same sort of recognition
that Barnabas had. They end up lying to the Holy Spirit and God. They end up
dead.
And not long after that, instead of telling a story of “no
needy people,” Luke tells a story of widows who are complaining about being
neglected in the daily distribution.
Never again will Luke describe the church like he did prior
to this story and you want find those sorts of stories in the epistles of the
New Testament either.
I would argue that the church has never quite been the same.
And guess what – the problem was internal not external.
Back to Ash Wednesday. I couldn’t help but think that the
first place I should look when it comes to examining my witness for Christ is
internal. What are my spiritual disciplines that sustain my faith? What daily
things to I do that make me a stronger believer? And, most uncomfortable, are
there some internal “Ananias and Sapphira” like behaviors that need to stop?
But beyond that, for all of us as believers living in what
seems like a hostile world, what do our insides look like? The churches and
ministries that we are part of, what do the insides look like? Is the real
struggle actually from the outside – or should we go to our own “courtyard
moments” and think internally for a bit? Where are the “Ananias and Sapphira”
issues in my church? My ministry? My family? My . . .?
Don’t misread me – I know that there are serious external
battles to be fought, and with God’s help, won! But . . . I am pretty confident
that the way to win spiritual battles starts on the inside for people and for
ministries.